I Drew A Line In The Sand-Egypt 2019
In 2019 I embarked on an unforeseen trip to the ancient lands of Egypt. For me, travel had always been within the US or on a cruise ship Island hopping throughout the Caribbean. Traveling half way around the world was definitely a leap out of my comfort zone. The group I was with were all new acquaintances, most had travelled to foreign lands many times. I discovered this retreat to Egypt by happenstance after listening to my favorite podcast at the time. After a brief call with the trip leader and an Intuitive psychic reading with him I knew I had to go. Everything lined up perfectly. The cash appeared, my husband was super supportive and encouraged me to follow the “knowing” I had. The one hesitation was leaving my two kids during the 2 weeks leading up to Christmas. Like most parents this is the busiest time of the best season of the year. The shopping, school events, travel…all of it. I was going to miss it, be on a trip for myself and return just 2 days before Christmas. I was shocked that I couldn't hold in my excitement for the journey. My anxiety went through the roof weeks and months leading up to the trip. I was doubling up on my lexapro and praying for an easy travel excursion. My life then was full of the unknowns and what ifs ruling my subconscious. The doubt, shame, judgement… all kinds of negativity swirling around all the time. I worked as a nurse full time. The voices and people’s opinions ruling my thoughts “I can’t believe you’re leaving your kids”. I was always exhausted and felt as if there had to be more to my life. Believe it or not, Egypt turned out to be exactly what I needed. I had no idea at the time about transformation, self care, my intuitive abilities…none of it. Everything changed, the ancient lands became the spring board of my transformational journey speeding up into hyperdrive.
One special day on the trip is the day I drew the line in the sand. I donned a dress I had brought, feeling joyfully feminine that morning with a glee and determination in my smile. We were heading to Hatshepsut’s Temple across the Nile on the West Bank. It was a beautiful morning, the sun in Egypt is so warm and nourishing. Traveling there in December has many benefits and the weather is one of them. Upon arrival to her temple I felt an intense sense of connectedness that I had never felt before. Walking on the sand and the rock walkway where so many before me had stepped. I allowed my heart to lead me of the walkway. I found an open area and drew a line. I heard my higher self say “this is the line in the sand, the ending and the beginning of the new.” I stared at it, the symbolism was intense. All i had to do was step over it, I couldn't move. All i had to do was step of the line to a new beginning, deep breath….my feet wouldn't budge. Why was this so hard?
All of a sudden with out hesitation, one foot over and the other followed. I had done it. In that moment memories came whooshing into my mind like a tidal wave. They way i was before-the actions, the words, the doubts all came flooding into my mind. I can decide to change….Change…what does that mean? Little did I know at the time but that day was the day my soul made me promise to myself to start learning that “I AM ENOUGH”, “I AM WORTHY.”
And so it began. She called, I answered, I arrived, She guided me back to myself.
